background- girl meets boy, gets swept off her feet, they have live happily together for over four years.
Naturally, being together for four years, our relationship has come to the stage of…marriage? I think not. But lately we have been hassled by family, friends and basic strangers about getting married and having children. What?! My response is always the same, "We do not care about getting married, it is not a big deal to us." Their reactions entail eye rolling and, "Yeah right…"
Now, you may think we are scared of settling down, making a lifelong commitment but, that is not the case.
Our love has grown into the type of love where you want the other to have the window seat on an long airplane ride, regardless of the constant butt-bumping by flight attendants as they walk down the isle way. We cuddle through the night and wake up to a kiss each morning. We shared the type of love where arguments last no longer than five minutes because we can’t keep a straight face if we look at one other. We are best friends. So, why not get married? Simply, because we don’t need to. We are so happy and content with our relationship as it is. We are not opposed to the idea but at the moment it doesn’t suit us. We are meticulously working towards a college education, we live in a loft above my parents garage, we are not religious. We don’t need marriage, we need each other -which is what we have now and forever. Marriage does not dictate that.
just finished dance, dance, dance by haruki murakami. no, it is not about dance literally [ lame, dancer reading fiction about dance! ] but refers to life as a dance; keeping in step, never stop moving.
i just want to run, run from all responsibilities, hopes and dreams. the things i care for so deeply, all feelings and thoughts. run to a place of nothingness not of darkness but quietness, silence. a place where my mind is silent and serene. numbness, ignorance. nothing to care for or create. not an identity, cause who are we, really. you and i will never know. and that’s the truth. i want to be in a place where you and i can realize that, completely. wholly. i want to run far and long. i want my lungs to burn and my breath be heavy. i’d follow my feet because my heart is empty, spilt over. i tired of hurting, longing, worrying. caring. i want to be released, i want to run free.
I have finished the wind-up bird chronicle and am working on dance, dance, dance next will be kafka on the shore [cant wait!]. I love his writing style and themes. His books are dreamy and open for interpretation. addicting to say the least.