Have you ever been so, completely happy and sad simultaneously - in the very same moment your internals pull opposingly. Your eyes, out of sync - a crooked smile made by one side of the mouth, the other droops, quivers - saggingly sad.
A day of small gestures, powerful words, family ties baring more weight, becoming stronger - I love you meant something, true, blue just for you, Daddio. A ketchup splattered car tended to by its’ perpetrator, though accidental, knelt against the asphalt tediously cleaning with apologies spewing from his mouth - what a gentleman. I could have kissed him right there for his kind heart.
I found that more options are available to me - this revelation, sadly, was brought about by a self other than my own but man, did it ever mean the world to me. Recognition. Racing thoughts, options? Whoa.
Tonight, I’ll let my dream’n state iron out details, logistics.